Oct 7, 2007
The real Lisa has entered the conversation
A few things I am admitting about myself and trying to come to terms with:
- I am a perfectionist. Striving for perfection makes me stagnant.
- I am an emotional strip miner. I bond very quickly and explosively to certain people throughout my life to fill some need. Once that need is met, it can become hard for me to relate.
- I am afraid of being a nobody. I do not live up to my image.
- I am afraid of establishing myself as a single entity. I always feel lost without having another person’s energy as a compass.
- I relate to people easiest through understanding and supporting gender roles. This is called seduction.
- I am afraid and avoidant of conflict. This leads to other forces determining outcomes instead of myself.
- My fantasies and imagination make me complacent. Visualizing myself doing what I want fulfills me for a period of time, leaving me without ambition to actually accomplish those goals.
- I have no concept of emotional boundaries. This is probably the most dangerous thing I’ve ever realized about myself.
PS: I learned at WordCamp 2007 that if you post lists with an uneven number of items, it unconsciously encourages readers to participate to round out that list for you…
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Matt
It must’ve been a hell of a night. :-) Congratulations on your new-found levels of self-awareness.
Oct 7th, 2007
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